snapshots of our life.

I’m not even quite sure where to start with all of this. I feel like I have plenty on my mind and tons to be thankful for. There have been things that have happened this year that have made me realize we aren’t guaranteed tomorrow, and people should know how loved they are. I have so many things to be thankful for, and I am especially thankful for the people in my life…

My mama– It has been the best feeling in the world to have grown up feeling so loved, unconditionally. Everyone should have someone in their life like this. I’m incredibly lucky to have her as my mom, but more than that as my best friend.

My family–It is the little times we have together like birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, anniversaries, Fall Festivals, etc that make me realize how much they mean to me. My cousins are a good bit older than me, and their children (my second cousins) are a good bit younger. So I’m stuck right in the middle, and joke about sitting at the kids’ table, etc. But in all honesty, I wouldn’t want it any other way. One minute I’m involved in a serious conversation. And the next, I’m the only one allowed into the kids secret hiding place. Best of both worlds.

Anna & Erica–What else could I possibly say about them? They are everything to me. I don’t know where I would be without them right now. They’ve seen me at my best, and at my worst. And love me unconditionally just the same. I love them way more than they will ever know.

My suga muffin Jamie (haha!)–There is not one thing I have asked Jamie to do that she has turned me down on. She’s been there every single time I have needed her, and I think that is one of the best things about having her as my friend. She’s always had my back.

My sisters–each of them means so much to me. I obviously am closer to some than others (Baska, Erica, Katie, Jamie–Love ya’ll!) but I’ve learned something from each of them. And am better because each of them is in my life. [P.S. I love my littles! ]

I would write more but I gotta get up early and go to my interview for Exec Board. Wish me luck!!

Night ya’ll, dream about the angels…

As much as the war has been on my mind, I figured I better start doing something about it. So I found a website that pairs you up with a soldier that has been submitted by a soldier that is deployed. His name is Casey Woods. I feel better already, maybe I will stop having dreams where bullets are whizzing past me!

If anyone else is interested the website is http://soldiersangels.com/

I’m off to bed! Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Love ya’ll!

So for my Correctional Institutional Systems class we had to go on a tour of a prison. We went to the one death row is at in Jackson. Good stuff. Can I tell you how nervous I was about this? I told Jamie not to leave my side, and she didn’t. We stayed shoulder to shoulder the whole time! Whatta pal! Haha! But it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Very clean and very orderly. And while they did stare, they didn’t make any comments (which is what I was most afraid of). I am loving this week…I’m being boring and loving every minute of it.

Today on the way to work I pulled out my old school CDs from a couple years ago. It is amazing how hearing a song can take you back to a certain time and a certain way you felt. There was a song on it that I had heard the week after Joe had left two years ago. I can’t believe it has been two years. It was a song by Aaliyah (I don’t know if I spelt it right but you get the point) called I Miss You. I hadn’t thought of him in awhile, and it was weird to think of him today. Don’t know why. Strange. Its crazy what a song can do.

Well, I’m off to do my best to be boring again.

“Woop there it done be”—[haha, love my girl Jamie!]

This is from semi-formal on Friday. It was at the Architect’s Lounge in Buckhead. We had fun! 

I love my littles! Caitlin, me, and Kimberly on big sis night this semester. Kimberly is a year younger than me and graduating a semester before me. Gotta love that! Love ya’ll! 

So lately I have gotten this weird obsession with looking at pictures of the war. I don’t really know why and even when a warning comes up saying that are graphic pictures–I still press play to see them. MSNBC.com has plenty of them every day, and I have spent plenty of time looking at them. Still not really sure why. Because everytime it gives me this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and makes me sick. But I still look at them…

So the other night I went to bed after I had talked to a friend (who is going back to Iraq in mid-January, so this is probably where it is coming from) and had one of the weirdest dreams ever. I was in an abandoned garage in Iraq with my mom, Peanut, and a St. Bernard. My husband, who looked exactly like Mike Tyson in every aspect, was outside trying to fend off the Iraqi army from approaching and taking over the garage we were in. So my mom and I had bullets whizzing past us and we were holding the dogs down so they wouldn’t get shot. I woke up on more than one occasion sweating with fear telling myself it was just a dream. And then when I went back to bed, picked right back up in the dream where I had left off.

Yeah, I’m worried about myself…

Woke up at 6:30 this morning (which is ridiculous in my book) to be at my doctors appointment at Gwinnett Medical. It went better than I thought it would go, I was definitely nervous. But instead of having a mammogram done, I had and ultrasound. My mama says they did this because if they had given me a mammogram they would never be able to get me back in there. This is probably true! I thought that I wouldn’t know the results until when I go back to my girl doctor on the 30th, but they told me today everything is fine and normal.

I went home and went back to bed til 1:30, got up, took a shower, got ready, and then met my girl Jamie at Perimeter Mall to shop for something to wear to semi-formal on Friday. (JRo I’m sorry I’m selfish when it comes to shopping, haha–You know you love me!) We both found something. I’m not wearing a dress because its just semi-formal, but I got a super cute top to wear with black pants. Its a red halter type thing and its silky and fun! And then we can just go out to Buckhead from there since its just dinner. We won’t have to go back to her place. I think we are going to Moondogs but I’m not sure??

So I was nominated tonight to be on Exec, and I am running for Secretary and Treasurer, but would much rather have Secretary. We’ll see, it will all work out the way it is supposed to and with what is best for the sorority. I’m definitely done with Historian though, I’m burnt out on taking pictures. Thank goodness for my little sister and Christin Burgess, otherwise there would just be pictures from Rush. Because that is pretty much all I’ve taken. Ofoto.com is the greatest thing ever.

Ok well I am off to bed. Going to try and get up early and go work out so I don’t have to do it on my way home from school. No Stats class tomorrow night! Woop woop!

And Anna Ruth, if you read this–its my turn to let you know you are a princess! I love you bunches. And you are right, we are never going to have this time again. Don’t look so forward to it being over. There is plenty of time for the next chapter in your life. This one will be done before you know it (and more than likely too soon!). I’m always here for you!!! And I’ll be in the next chapter, and the chapter after that, and the chapter after that… Love you dude!

I love this picture! 

So I’m going to start by saying I love my sisters! Everyone always said that you will get out of Delta Zeta what you put into it, and that couldn’t be more true. I’m not gonna lie, last year was rough pretty rough at times. But I went into this year deciding that I was going to open up and just be me. If somethin ticked me off, I’d say it. If I love someone, I’ll tell them. If I’m happy, I’ll bust out my cackle! I was also going to make more of an effort getting to know each of my sisters, and put more into the sorority. I knew when I joined Delta Zeta how much I loved those girls, but I can’t tell you how much more over this past year that I have grown to appreciate and respect them. I am so proud to be a part of something so great. In just these past two years, it is weird to watch how the chapter has changed. And it is even more weird to be one of the older girls. I can’t believe I will be graduating in a year. Crazy!

Anyways, this weekend was long and pretty tiring but so worth it. We had lamplighting on Friday. [Kimberly--"Ladies is pimp too; go on and brush your shoulders off." Haha, love ya!] I’m really excited that Caitlin is my new little sister! She’s great. Saturday I went to see a movie with my mama. We saw Shall We Dance, and it was super cute! Then Saturday night I went to Jamie’s to ride with her to Sigma Nu Sweepstakes at Frequency in Buckhead, to cheer on our dancers for the dance competition! They did awesome, and it was fun! Today we had initiation and a reception for our new sisters, and I came home and past out from about six to nine. Now I’m having a hard time going to bed, go figure!

So Dieter bought a Hummer H2 this weekend, it is pimp! I feel like I’m riding in a transfer truck when I’m in it. Haha! He has wanted one of these for a while, and I’m happy for him.

Things are finally calming down, but I am so ready for Thanksgiving break to get here! I need a break from school. Speaking of school, I’m going to all my classes this week. That is my goal. My CJ Stats class is cancelled on Wednesday though, thank goodness.

Ok, I’m sorry for the long and boring entry. But I’m pretty boring tonight. Dream about the angels! Night…

So I hadn’t had much of a chance to post anything this week. It has been crazy stressful and I’ve been in a definite funk. But I’m shaking it finally…

Fair warning, if you are a guy and don’t like to hear about girly things, maybe you should skip this next paragraph…
I went the the girl doctor on Tuesday. And I have to go have a mammogram done next Tuesday just to be on the safe side because there were a few dense areas the doctor didn’t know for sure about. It’s nothing huge, I know this. It’s just precautions and so we have a base to go on for when I get older. But it has still hung over my head and made my tummy ache worrying about it. I’ve been holding it in so well. But I finally had my break down today at work and cried all about it to my mom. She made me feel better, like she always does. If it were anything to be worried about, I would know because she would definitely be worried. My nerves have been shot this week because of it though.

I went and worked out today after work. I only had time to run, but it is amazing how much better you feel about yourself when you do something like that. Then I went to Anna’s rents with my mama for a Southern Living party her mom was hosting. My mom racked up! It was fun, and I got to see Anna and Erica who I have missed so much this week. If it weren’t for Anna telling me what a princess I was I don’t know that I would have made it through. They really do mean the world to me. I love you guys way more than you know.

Then I came home from that and worked on Caitlin’s (my new lil sister!) poem for lamplighting tomorrow night. Its super cute and I can’t wait to give it to her. I made her a scrapbook page with our picture and the poem on it, and then got a 12 X 12 shadow box to put it in.

Anyways, I am worn out. This week has been emotionally and physically draining for me. I am counting the days til Thanksgiving break. Off to bed so I can make it to work on time tomorrow.

Dream about the angels! Night!