snapshots of our life.

Kiss the Rain

Hello
Can you hear me?
Am I gettin’ through to you?
Hello
Is it late there?
There’s a laughter on the line
Are you sure you’re there alone?
Cause I’mTryin’ to explain
Somethin’s wrong
You just don’t sound the same

Why don’t you
Go outside
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I’m gone, too long.
If your lips
Feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn.
Keep in mind
We’re under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me, as for you
If ya feel
You can’t wait till morinin’
Kiss the rain

Hello
Do you miss me?
I hear you say you do
But not the way I’m missin’ you
What’s new?
How’s the weather?
Is it stormy where you are?
Cause I’m so close but it feels like you’re so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew
What I’m left imagining in my mind

Would you go
Would you go
Kiss the rain
And you’d fall over me
Think of me
Think of me
Think of me
Only me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I’m gone too long
Kiss the rain.

Got my grades. 4 Bs and 1 A, guess I should be happy about it, but I’m not. I’m ticked off at myself. I could have pulled As out in 2 of those classes, and I’m still trying to figure out how I didn’t. My GPA fell, and I can’t afford for that to happen. Next semester I have to kick tail in all of my classes, but it still won’t get my GPA where I want it for law school. I’m thinking about changing my schedule around so that I can have an easy class on Thursday night that is a guaranteed A, and it will be with Jamie and Erica. I think I might. It just sucks because it is from 7:15 to 9:45 and I live out in eastbumble. I hate going down there for one class like that. We’ll see I guess.

So I celebrated Christmas with my girls last night. They came over and ate dinner (gorditas! what what!) and we opened presents. Even though I already knew what Anna got me because she let it slip. Tehe! (Just kiddin dude, I didn’t hear what it was. Haha!) We had fun, and they rock! Not just because they get me good gifts every year- because they really are the greatest friends ever. Anna gave me an olive green purse with my initials monogrammed in pink on it. And she gave me a bath robe that she got from Aeropostle that is pink with turtles on it. And Erica gave me this huge collage frame type thing with a bunch of my pictures I had sent her through Ofoto. Which I thought was adorable! I think they liked what I got them. A & E–I had fun , thanks for being such incredible friends!

I am off work until Tuesday. I brought some work home with me that I’ll do before then sometime. But I’ll work Tuesday and then Wednesday I leave for Louisiana! I’m so excited! Craig invited me to come down. My mom and I talked about it and my car probably wouldn’t make it there and back, so I am taking a bus down there. It leaves at 10 a.m. and I’ll get there about 9 p.m. Haha, this should be an experience! And he and I will either take one back to Columbus or his mom is taking him back to Columbus so he can leave his truck in Louisiana for when he is deployed, so I can just ride back with them. I’m so happy. I miss him so much, and want to spend every minute possible with him before he leaves. And I get to spend New Years with him. The closer the week of January 17th gets the more it makes me sick to my stomach. I literally feel like I’m being punched everytime I see something on the news about the war. It makes me look at all of it in an entirely different light. As crazy as it may sound to some people, I don’t see myself dating anyone while he is gone. I don’t see the point of it. The whole point of dating (in my point of view) is to find someone that just fits. I feel like I have found that with him. I’m still scared to death though. I knew from the get go that he was going back, I just never expected to feel this way about him. And never expected it to be this hard for him to go.

J-Ro if you read this, I miss you tons! It ain’t the same not seeing you every day dude! Haha! Sweet cheeks loves her suga muffin. Hope you had fun with Charlie tonight and he gotcha some good stuff.

I’m off to finish wrapping presents! Merry Christmas everybody!! Love ya’ll!

So, I finally finished up the semester on Wednesday. Thank goodness it is over! I don’t know how much more I would have been able to handle. It wasn’t necessarily that it was a tough semester because of the classes and the material, I just had an incredibly hard time going to my classes. Which does create a problem! I split it up a little bit for next semester so I’m hoping by not being in school from 12-7 it will help out. I’m hoping for 3 As and 2 Bs, but the 16 page paper bit in the rear. That was definitely not something I should have procrastinated on, but you know what are you gonna do? It’s over–finally.

I went down to Columbus on Friday to spend time with Craig before he left yesterday to go to home to Louisiana. It was a lot of fun, but every day that I spend with him just makes me realize there isn’t much more time til he leaves for Iraq. There is still so much more that I want to learn and get to know about him, but what I have learned I have loved. I can’t explain it. I know if I started to though, I could seriously go on and on about him. I miss him already and I just saw him yesterday, I can’t imagine what this next year is going to be like.

Saturday I drove home from Columbus and worked on some Christmas presents. And today mom and I went Christmas shopping! She got me the most amazing digital camera! I love it! And I don’t have to wait for Christmas–she let me go ahead and have it. It’s 5.1 megapixels, with a huge LCD screen and it videos movies too. Thanks mama! Around 2 we went over to our next door neighbor’s house for a small Christmas party she was having with everyone in the neighborhood. I love where we live, the people in this neighborhood are so friendly. And now I’m about to go be lazy some more. It feels so weird not having anything to work on for school/study.

Craig and I last weekend at Jamie’s apartment 

So my new scrapbook that I’m doing is an all about me book. I’m putting everything in it that makes me tick. Things that are important to me, my favorites, and people I love. These are some of the entries I have in it so far. I’ll post more as I get them done.

Right now I’m just bored because I finished my 16 page paper finally (after working on it for 12 hours!) but I’m so jacked up on caffeine I can’t sleep!

Avery Campbell, my niece
I can’t even describe what it felt like to lay eyes on her for the first time. She was in the ICU for newborns because her lungs were acting up. She had tubes and monitors hooked up to her, and just looking at her tugged on my heart. But she was beautiful! Now, a year later, she has developed such a personality. I love being around her, and my only wish is I had more time to spend with her. I cannot wait to watch her grow up. Her laugh, her expressions, her innocence. I thank God for bring such a beautiful baby into my life. I am so lucky to be her aunt!

Anna & Erica, my sanity!
Anna & Erica are two reasons why I am who I am today. I know this is said often, but my life definitely would not be the same without them. God brought them to me at a time when I needed them most. I’ve always told them I’d be lucky to have just one as my best friend. The fact that they both are still amazes me. They aren’t the kind of friends you lose touch with over the years; they are going to be around for a lifetime. They’ll be beside me at my wedding, there when I graduate from law school, get my first real job, have babies, and every other milestone we come to. Through good and bad, we are in it together and that is what I love about them. They stick by me through everything.

Possibly the best job ever…I might possibly have the best job ever. I don’t know how I got to be so lucky. Two and a half years ago I started working with my mom at Leather Creations. And it is strange to see how what I do has evolved over those two years. I started out at a little corner desk (that some of they guys in the back made) in my mom’s office. I grated on her last nerve just in the first week, so they set me up in the mail room. Which was just the place for me: my own computer and e-mail (it’s the little things in life!) and just enough traffic in out of people using the copier or mailing supplies to keep me entertained. When we moved to the new building I got my very own office. I know there is going to come a time when I must move on and start my own career, but that day is going to be tough! I have worked with these same people for over 2 years, but have known most of them almost half of my life (my mom has worked there since I was 12)! They are like my family!

I’m a nerd, I know this. We will leave it at that. But I’m comfortable in my own skin. And those that know me…I think they like my nerdiness.

Jamie informed me that I needed to update my blog! Yes ma’am!

Well, I am done with Vaughn’s class, oh besides the 16 page paper I have due on Wednesday. But hey, its cool. Got a page and half of it done, I’m on a roll. Tomorrow is the day! 24 hours of Legal Issues involving prison searches and seizures here we come! Good times. So if you don’t talk to me tomorrow or Wednesday, this will be the reason why!

So this weekend was fun. Craig came up from Columbus on Saturday. It’s weird, I felt really comfortable around him. We talked about it and it was like we just hadn’t seen each other in awhile. I just have to keep reminding myself he leaves to go back to Iraq for the second time in a month. And for the majority of that time he’ll be in Louisiana on leave to visit his family. He leaves this Friday to go home and we’ll be gone until January 2nd. Then leaves for Iraq around the 19th. (Remember this Kristen!). I plan on keeping in touch with him while he is gone, so we will see. What’s meant to be will find away. Sometimes I wonder why I couldn’t have met him awhile back, or even when he gets back from Iraq this next time. But for whatever reason, I met him when I did. Now I just got to make the best of it. Regardless, I don’t want to lose touch with him, and he feels the same way. So we’ll see.

Sunday night I went to my mom’s church for her Christmas program. She looked so pretty in her formal black dress that the choir has to wear. And the program was awesome! I am so glad I got to go.

This is a pretty boring update and the reason for this is I let Jamie boss me around by telling me to do it. But I don’t feel like it, so there isn’t much substance here. I’m off to go to bed so I can rise and shine in the morning to begin my 16 page paper the day before it is due! College life. Nothing like it.

The beginning of this week was a pretty rough one for me, so I just wanted to say thank you to the people who have called and tried to get in touch with me. I am sorry if I was a bad friend for not calling back. I’m bad about that in general, I’m not trying to hate. (KP this is especially to you…I love you and thank you!) And “sweet cheeks”, thanks for listening to me and always having my back.

Everything that happen later in the week kinda made me realize what a whiney baby I was being and put things into persepctive. So what’s done is done, I’m over it, and moving on. I am so lucky to have such incredible friends though. I know I say this all the time but I love ya’ll!

Wednesday during the day my stepbrother was in an accident on his lawnmower (he does landscaping for a living). He looked back for a second because something had fallen off, and when he did he hit a bump and fell off himself. His hand got caught in the blades where it spits the grass out. My dad came by my work on Thursday to put new windshield wipers on my car and told me about it. This is how that side of my family works, Chad loses parts of his fingers I hear about it the next day. June (my step mom) almost dies from a staff infection, I hear about it a week later because I finally call him after hearing it through my grandmother. But enough complaining, I won’t ever understand…

I didn’t know what to expect going in to see him. Dad said that he was in surgery for four hours the night before. I hate hospitals as it is so I asked my mama to go with me. She is such a trooper, I know I’ve put her in some ackward situations over the years. This one just adds to it! Haha! Me, my dad, my mom, my stepmom and my stepbro all in the tiny hospital room together. Gotta love it.

Anyways, I expected a lot worse that what I saw. He is going to be fine and is such a sport about the whole thing. Granted he was on a lot of pain medication so I’m sure he was feelin pretty good. He lost the tips of his index and middle finger, and they are pretty broken and beat up. He’ll have to go to physical therapy and there is some nerve damage. He may have to have another surgery, but they’ll have just wait and see how he heals I guess.

When I was 11 and Chad was 15 or 16, he and I were pretty close. We’d play basketball and Super Nintendo. We did all kinds of stuff together. Because of Chad’s disability we were on the same age level mentally. But as I got older, physically and mentally, Chad didn’t. And now I don’t really give him much of a chance. I talk to him still when I go over there, but I don’t have as much patience with him as I should. I need to be better about that. I’m just glad he is ok…