snapshots of our life.

Harry Winston woman: “This ring is $50,500.”
Jamie: “$50,500!!!??!”
Kristen: “That’s more than a car!”
Jamie: “That’s more than a big car…that’s like a Bentley!”

In reference to the ring in the Bachelorette.

So this weekend was great, and I had so much fun with KP and Jamie, oh geez we are gonna have fun on Spring Break! Saturday I went shopping and then to get my hair highlighted. I have too much freakin hair, it took the girl about 3 hours to do it. But so worth it because I love it! I came home after that and got ready and went to Jamie’s to meet her and Katie. I definitely had a good buzz going on before we even got to the party. We stayed there for about an hour or so (I even danced with Bess and JRo,which is a pretty good indicator of how much I had to drink, hehe, Kristen=no rhythm) and then left to go to Mr. C’s. (where Katie met Jimmy Morris,hehe). Stayed there til the closed (at 4) and went to Waffle House, where I-Zack was our waiter (not to be confused with Izaac). Jamie seems to think that if you have double letters in your name there must be an emphasis on that particular letter. And I giggle everytime I hear her say it in my head. They have an interesting way of giving silverware at the Waffle House off Northside Drive, I will be posting a picture soon. The four of us (Jimmy joined us) went in search of some things I need that I just won’t mention on my blog. They were closed, but soon, very soon. We got home around six and went to bed. Good times. I had a blast!

We woke up this morning and laid in bed til around 1 before we got up and went Steak and Shakes (yes the plural version of Steak & Shake! according to Suga Muffin) and sat next to a very interesting woman who seemed to have thought she was coming to a place where she got a five course meal. I wanted to hit her.

So I must say how much I love my boyfriend. There is tons to appreciate about him. But I have never been so trusted in a relationship before. I love that I can go out with my friends and he not only doesn’t give me a guilt trip about it (like so many jealous, possessive, ex-boyfriends have done in the past) he wants me to go instead of moping around my house missing him. (So instead I go out and have fun with my girls and still miss him.) I really am so lucky. Trust and honesty are two of the most important things to me in a relationship, because if you don’t have that you won’t go anywhere. I’m so glad he knows I wouldn’t do anything to hurt him or lose him or mess things up. (I love you Craig Nathen!)

Have I mentioned how much I love goat wrestling!? (Haha, muah, I miss you baby!)

Jamika and KP, I love you girls and had a blast with ya’ll! Thanks for driving my drunk ass around dude!

So sorry for the cheesy lyrics in the last entry, but that song makes me think of Craig. And last night I was on my home from the research study and listened to it the whole way home. There are days where I am fine and I miss him but I suck it up. And there are days where I miss him so bad it literally hurts. I have never known what it feels like to love someone this much. Or to be loved as much. There were things I have been thinking all week, and I finally got to talk to him about it all last night when I got home, so I have been a lot better.

I got to hang out with Anna and Erica tonight. We went to see Doodle’s house (its almost finished!) and then went and ate at Chili’s. Tons of fun.

Tomorrow I have a date with my FASFA form for HOPE. And Saturday I am getting my hair highlighted (finally!) and going out with Jamie and probably Erica and KP! I always have fun with them, so Saturday should be tons of fun. I really want to look for a bathing suit before Key West, I saw some cute ones at Target. I may do that this weekend too, except the thought of a bathing suit makes me want to vomit.

Well,this update was pointless and has no meaning. He said he was gonna call me when he gets off his shift, so I’m gonna go! Sweet dreams!

I put away the groceries
And I take my daily bread
I dream of your arms around me
As I tuck the kids in bed
I don’t know what you’re doin’
And I don’t know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you’re wishin’ on that same bright star

I wonder, I pray
And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it’s so hard livin’ here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)

I know that we’re together
Even though we’re far apart
And I’ll wear our lucky penny ’round my neck
Pressed to my heart

I wonder, I pray
And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it’s so hard livin’ here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)

I still imagine your touch
It’s beautiful missing something that much
But sometimes love needs a fighting chance
So I’ll wait my turn until it’s our turn to dance

I wonder, I pray
I sleep alone
I cry alone
Without you this house is not a home
So please, come home soon

I walk alone
I cry alone
I’ll wait for you, don’t want to die alone
So please, come home soon
Come home soon
Come home soon

~SheDaisey “Come Home Soon”

I’m in a serious funk today. It sucks. And I know why, but knowing why doesn’t make it not suck and doesn’t make the funk go away. There are good days and there are bad days. I know that today is just a bad day and I’ll get over it by tomorrow. I’m just down.

On a good note, I have two research study groups that I am doing tomorrow and Thursday. Both are going to pay me $75 which will be money to get my hair highlighted and a new bathing suit for Key West.

On a random note, my dog got her hair cut yesterday and she looks exactly like an old man. The woman cut her eyebrows really short and she’s fun to look at.

“To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.”
-Anna Louise Strong

I’m in the library and I think I’m going to be studious. We shall see how long this lasts.

To the narrow-minded skank in the Aderhold elevator today at approximately 1:15pm:

I would just like for you to know how sorry I feel for you. Anyone who lives their life thinking like you think, really concerns me. And the fact that you have the ability to not only think what you think, but also have the nerve to open your mouth and speak it, has me even more concerned. It is probably lucky for you that we were in so much shock you said what you did about us. Otherwise, Jamie and I would have had no problem telling you what you could do with your velcro tennis shoes!

You don’t know me, you don’t know Jamie. The comment you made and the judgement you passed on me in the elevator because you saw Delta Zeta written on the back of my t-shirt was rude and very stereotypical. If being in a sorority is not what is best for you, I don’t pass judgement on you for that. But chances are you have no idea what being in a sorority is all about. I hope now having this experience with you, I won’t meet someone else who wears velcro tennis shoes, and pass judgement on them. How wrong would it be of me to think that just because a person wears velcro shoes, the must be a narrowminded, rude, VERY judgemental b**ch?! I don’t think that’d be fair, just like it wasn’t fair to call us “stupid sorority girls”.

I don’t know your face, but I will recognize your shoes! And if I should meet you in the Aderhold elevator again, I will let you know what I think of you. Because I’m letting it really bug me that I wasn’t quick enough to let you have it! But then you are a coward, and said it as the elevator door was closing!

I am not stupid, Jamie is not stupid and we are more well-rounded women (including intelligence!) for having been apart of a sorority, espeically part of Delta Zeta. I think it may have done you some good, but then who am I to judge you? I know nothing about you besides your a narrowminded idiot that wears velcro shoes!

Wow, I feel better!
Your elevator buddy,
Kristen

Yesterday has been a month since he left. A whole month. It seems like he just left yesterday, but at the same time it seems like he’s been gone forever. I can’t explain it. But I’ve been extremely happy this week because we had no clue we were going to be able to talk as much as we are. And since he is working the night shift there and he’s in the operations center we got to talk everyday this week. Which has made things better on both of us. He makes me so happy and he knows what to say to make everything better. 4 more months (hopefully til he comes home on leave)! We talked about a lot of things this week, and he talked to Jamie about a lot of things this week. But made her swear she wouldn’t talk to me about any of it. She randomly started asking me about rings the other night though when I knew she was talking to him. And Jamika and I never have talked about that subject…hmmm. All she’ll tell me is “I know a lot more than you do.” Freakin June hurry up and get here. Heehee.

On a side note, I got to talk to Chastity on the internet the other day. I have been thinking to call her a lot lately and never gotten around to it. I checked my blog the other night and saw where she had left me a message and as I was e-mailing her she got on IM. Great minds thing alike. I miss her so much and she is one person I don’t want to lose touch with. I don’t think we ever would and when we do finally talk to each other I know we will pick up without missing a beat. She’s only a year older than me but I’ve always looked up to her as an older sister type thing. And I miss having that.

On another side note, I finished the special sister book for this Tuesday and I must say it is kick ass. I wish I could keep it for myself. Heehee.

And last but not least, my day tomorrow will consist of country cooking in Bogart (a small town right outside of Athens) with my grandparents, dad and stepmom. And the redneck games of the Daytona 500. Oh how I do not understand Nascar. But I figure it will be a good opportunity to study for my CJ Management test I have on Monday.

I’m off to bed. My head hurts. Night!

Yesterday was fun. Anna and I went to eat lunch with Erica at Grayson Elem. And Anna brought cupcakes for the class. The kids were adorable. It makes me want to be a teacher. No really. And as cheesy as it sounds, it was fun watching Erica be a teacher! I am so proud of her!

I’m on instant messenger right now talking to Craig. Last night was awesome, I got to talk to him for a long time on the computer. He’s working in the office. I hope that is where they keep him. He says it should stay the same. I hope it does because it gives us more of an opportunity to talk.

Well nothing to exciting, I’m off to get something to eat and go to my last class.

I may not be with him today but just knowing I have him makes this the best Valentine’s Day I’ve ever had.

He text messaged me a few minutes ago and I got on Yahoo Messenger to talk to him. I had set my phone so it made a loud noise to wake me up when he got on and IMed me. So I got up and turned on my computer. They have a 30 minute time limit because there are so many people waiting to use it. So I talked to him for about 20 minutes. And he turned on the webcam that they have on the computers there. So the minute I saw his face I busted into tears, but definitely happy tears. It’s one thing to hear his voice and hear him tell me he is doing good. But to see him is a totally different feeling. I miss his face. I miss his hands holding mine. I miss his hugs. I miss him kissing my forehead. I miss the feeling I get just being in the same room with him. But this is just temporary. All of this is worth it because in the end, I’ll have the man of my dreams forever.

Going back to bed, definitely gonna have sweet dreams.

Happy Birthday to my bestest friend Erica! I love you so much! I can’t believe how fast time goes by. It seems like it wasn’t that long ago when you were coming to get me in Destin. I’d go through that experience a million times more just to have you be my best friend out of it all.

My poem I sent to Craig for Valentine’s Day:
Thank you Lord for bringing me the bravest man I know.
My love for him is deeper than I could ever even show.
I’m patiently waiting for him to come back home to me.
So we can start our lives together, the best is yet to be.
He’s everything I wanted, but didn’t know existed in one man.
I knew he was my soulmate in the first minute he held my hand.
I want to be held safely in his arms and know it will all be okay.
He’s who I want to be with forever, and forever I will stay.
Half of me is missing as we are oceans apart.
Thousands of miles away in Iraq, this man holds my heart.
I lie awake in bed at night, his face is all I see.
Hoping when he falls asleep, he dreams peacefully of me.

Copyright Kristen Cartee 2005
(Jamie this is more for you because you never know which one of your friends is going to be reading my blog! Kidding Kidding, no but really! Haha!)