snapshots of our life.

We went to see my grandfather yesterday.  At first it was really hard.  Walking in there was not what I expected it to be.  But his face lit up when he saw me.  He may not remember my name, but that’s ok.  Because the smile that came across his face when I was there, let me know he knew who I was.  He communicated a lot better this time than the last time we saw him.  He had this way of saying “Hey girl!”, when I walked in his house.  And yesterday when we got done visiting and they were getting him out of his wheelchair to put him in his bed, I left the room.  When I came back in it was like he hadn’t been with me the last 2.5 hours and he got just as excited as he did when I first got there and says, “Hey girl!”  It’s hard.  This isn’t easy.  On my grandmother, on my dad, on me.  But I’m glad I went.  For me.  For my daddy. For my Gran.  And for my Papa. Because he’s aware enough to know that I came.  That I was there to see him and spend the day with him.  And that’s all that matters.  As hard as it is to watch him like this, it was worth it to spend the time with him that we did. 

One of the girl’s (from the Armed Forces Support Forum that I joined when Craig was deployed) husband just returned to the United States from 16 or 17 month long deployment to Iraq.  I am just so happy when I hear of one of their husbands making it home safely.  I seriously can’t even begin to explain the impact each of those girls had on my life and still do.  Even though Craig and I aren’t going through it now, we share a bond.  Those girls were there for me when I needed them the most, and I continue to try to be there for them as much as I can. 

The LSAT studing is going.  Just going.  Not good.  Not necessarily bad.  But I feel like I’m getting somewhere.  I’m making more time for it now that I know that it’s closing in on me.  I’d like to say I think I’m ready for it.  I’m not.  But I do finally feel like it’s clicking.  Which is a good feeling. 

I think that’s all I got right now.  Just wanted to post a little diddy while it was on my mind.  I’m off to bed.